[	Current Mood	|	grateful	]
[	Current Music	|	you're all i have - snow patrol	]

loneliness.
a burden none ever intended to bear.

we all have families, we all may have friends. that's great! but there are moments in life where we feel alone, the mentality of no-one-understands and i-am-alone-in-this-crap will just creep into us. and just as all of us are praying for God to remove the loneliness deep within us, we never imagined that He would actually reject it. living in loneliness? being empty? God, You gotta be kidding.

the silence is deafening... "i'm all alone, i'm left with no one but myself..."

there there, God is delighted. He whispers, breaking the silence, "the process of loneliness leads you to discover My presence is always with you..."

absurd? absolutely not. we're sinful, and He know that full well. we rarely go to God unless we have to, unless we have no one else to turn to, unless we're at our wit's end, unless we don't have a choice... precisely He love us so much that He had to pursue us in such a manner.

embrace one of God's greatest gift.
embrace loneliness.

psalm 23:4
even though i walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
i will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

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[	Current Music	|	reaching for you by hillsong	]

I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You
 

only He can satisfy...

ENJOY YOURSELF!

[	Current Mood	|	nervous	]
[	Current Music	|	my dad's radio	]

i caught slumdog millionaire , and i would say that their plot was fantastic . however some of the eight awards that they won are seriously not deserving . whatever happened to the academy judgement ):

for now , i'm all geared up for 'your curtain call'.
jars of clay - we dance for the audience of One
eastatwo - BREAK TWENTY! =D

[	Current Mood	|	grumpy	]
[	Current Music	|	elevator and shawty get loose remix	]

AND MERYL STEEP!!!!! AHH SHE SHOULD BE THE ONE WINNING THE BEST LEADING ACTRESS AWARD ! NOW I HATE THE OSCARS SO MUCH !


LOOK HOW STUNNING AND GORGEOUS SHE IS ! I HOPE SHE'S MY MOTHER ! HAHAHA YOU KNOW SHE GOT NOMINATED FIFTEEN TIMES AND WON TWICE ! KUDOS TO MERYL STEEP ! EVERYONE SHOULD SALUTE HER ! =D

or at least... let angelina jolie win the best leading actress... she've got sexy lips! why vote for that katie something person ?!?! EWW ):


ps : afterall i've decided not to be racist and give it a try watching slumdog millionaire (: the most , i'll just mute the show when i can't stand those indians speaking... (: teehee!

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OMG SHE'S SO AFRAID OF DOGS ! IF ONE DAY I GO UP TO HEAVEN , I WOULD ASK GOD TO REPEAT THE WHOLE SCENE REGARDING WHAT HAPPENED TODAY A ZILLION TIMES !

ps: hahaha sweet-looking demure young lady with long silky hair, sim yushan!

[	Current Mood	|	awake	]
[	Current Music	|	whoo~ by my standup fan	]

i've been in serious thoughts of converting my blog into not a blog that's inspiring, when people read they go "wahhhhh" but then it seems to take up alot of effort. i mean, you have to be conscious the way you type and phrase. it's like i can always anyhow type my post the way i like so long as i understand what i'm typing without fullstop or any punctuations whatsoever just as long as i like it and it doesn't matter or concern me if you don't get it or what because like what others have always been saying that it's my blog if you like it you'll like it if you don't then leave so you get my point of view about writing inspiring posts telling others what are your experiences and learnings for the day and all and i even gotta like blog almost everyday which is super tiring

righttttt... that's really tough , haha i'm used to having punctuations all around =D haha to, the point like, getting , it,,, all over,,, the place. ?>.,;[.; , yea you got me =D

HAHA now for my learnings:
i was preparing wordcentered church lesson seven and i am super convicted about the point "teach it" and "show it"! MAN, we really gotta keep on teaching, keep on modelling to our people. they'll never get a glimpse of what Christ is like until and unless you show them through your life. now it just make me more aware of the way i lead my life , being conscious of the image i'm portraying and teaching every teaching to my utmost best =D time to get it over with the life of bare minimum, it's the time to get down serious with the work of the Lord .

and till then , this blog will remain crap for the subsequent post i guess ? =D

[	Current Mood	|	thankful	]
[	Current Music	|	thank you by dido	]

I'M OVERJOYED ! I'M ON CLOUD NINE ! I'M OVER THE MOON ! I'M ELATED !

hahaha cos today my granny said yes to Jesus!!!!! seriously i was so moved, nearly teared! but then my maid was there, so embarassing, so i did not! HAHAHA

i'm very sure one day God will speak to my granny and let her experience Him! at least she's more positive after coming back from church today , she usually sleep at around like seven to nine at night but then today she's in church and she don't feel tired all the way and today she even fed herself during supper! OMG! HAHA positive positive!

thanks lighthouse! everyone who helped me, doubt they'll see this so i won't bother mentioning names! HEHEHE



ps: i can't wait for EA2 sentosa retreat tomorrow! =D
psps: i love my granny! especially our chief shepherd! =D

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at times , thoughts and workload gets overwhelming . i really do wonder why i'm born asian , with family that look down on you despite the hardwork you poured into the family . i dare not say i'm a perfect daughter but i dare say i'm a work in progress . why can't my parents believe and support the decisions i make ? whatever it is , i'm determined to achieve the goals i have in life , i'm not gonna give in what they have to say . my mind's made up , the case is close .

i'm not gonna rebel against my parents but i know one thing for sure , i'll never know until i've tried and i ain't gonna allow others to stop me before i even try .

that's that .

[	Current Mood	|	crappy	]
[	Current Music	|	unwell by matchbox twenty	]

HHHEEELLLLLLOOO you all know what's these? yes i'm getting super random but who cares? i think i'm creative HAHA!

k guess what's this!
dee eee enn aii sss eee rrh ooh cee kay sss

[	Current Mood	|	excited	]
[	Current Music	|	the stand by soul survivor	]

i wanted to blog before camp about my excitement but livejournal don't allow me to , so here i am , after camp ! HAHA =D

[	Current Mood	|	bored	]
[	Current Music	|	typing and chit chats by people in lab	]

HAHAHA I'M ULTRA BORED NOW ! STUPID TUTOR CHASED ME OUT OF CLASS ):


i was having a retreat with God yesterday and wow i'm really refreshed by God (:
will share briefly cos i gotta attend a make up lecture in no time!

God reminded me that He's a powerful God, more then able to to do whatever we asked of Him and since He's more than able, we too are more than able when we rely fully on Him =D

right that's the main crux , oh by the way i seriously can't play guitar while i'm spending time with God cos it seems as though Satan kept calling out my name due to my bad playing HAHA !

so... as i'm doing my quiet time at night , God spoke to me in 2 cor 9 but i forget which verse HAHA !
"whoever sows sparingly reaps sparingly , whoever sows generously reaps generously"


oh anyway i wanna thank God for cheng and my sheepmates! and florence, thanks for the night =D

I WANNA KEEP THE FAITH IN REAPING WHAT'S PRECIOUS IN THE KOG =D

[	Current Mood	|	relieved	]
[	Current Music	|	give You glory by jeremy camp	]

HAHA this post is dedicated to lau runiang cos she wanna know how's her camera...

alright seriously it ain't very nice for the camera to be with me , cos i nearly died of heart attack today...

i'll say briefly what happen.. haha
basically we borrowed the camera for the photoshoot for our ECG video and yesterday we had half the filming and shootings done , yay ! =D so this morning i was happily looking through the photos and walking around my house ( k actually i went to the toilet ) , and then i left the camera at one safe place of my toilet and i went to pee... ( at this moment , i don't remember if i took the camera out of the toilet )
i was about to leave home to go nexus and the water baptism place to meet sirui.. and vividly i remembered placing the camera into my bag... thinking to myself that my bag's full of gadgets =D i reached YWCA and we gathered at the auditorium to play games.. because joy was so funny , we all wanted to take photos of her . i searched my bag and to my horror , there's NO camera ! i thought it was a prank made by my eyes so i started ransacking my bag a few times , but there's still NO camera ! the bag's large enough that i could see everything inside it , but there's just no traces of the camera... i panicked and called home to ask my mum to search the house but she too said there's no signs of it... i pyschoed myself that the camera must be at home and made a few prayers to God here and there .
soon after i went nexus and took the banner for ECG and set off for home . upon reaching home , i was expectant to see the camera lying at the safe compartment in the toilet but to no avail , i searched high and low but there's still NO camera ! ): i literally broke down and then God prompted me to search my bag for the last time , i opened my bag , took out the banner and TADAA there the camera lay right in the bag infront of my bare eyes ! my God... how can this be ? i mean... something that is obviously missing can re-surface and appear... to me that was totally miraculous, more than magical ! i can't deny the fact that God is real !! He can make things that disappear to appear right before your eyes !

PRAYER WORKS , BUT IT TAKES FAITH TO BE ACCOMPANIED BY YOUR PRAYERS =D

no one rocks my world more than God , i love You God... You are my superhero ! MUACKS ! =D

with thanksgiving , with gratitude , with love
God i love You =D

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the past two days had been a bloated and full day for me , i've been eating non stop like some overweight girls in their high school...

in a nutshell , these are what i did =D
met up with my cousins yesterday and we went to eat ajisen... played arcade... watch mamma mia ( HIGHLY RECOMMEND ) and eat popcorn... watch their floorball match ( both of them are opponents , RP thrash argonauts 13 to 0 )... ate sausage combo with my relatives... fetch my mum back from malaysia and ate sushi...
today TP group cooked pasta at winstar's place... watched made of honour... drank corn soup with yushan... ate some chinese food with my parents

i felt it was fruitful cos it revolves mainly around people whom i love and enjoy being with... above all , we just ate non-stop ! seriously i don't wanna gain weight , i don't wanna look like some oversize kiddo walking around in the streets , that's very ugly ! ):

looking forward , advancing forcefully , sprinting ahead
=D